Wednesday, January 19, 2011

The Difference

So today I was pondering again the difference between being "needed" and being "wanted". Unfortunately I have had FAR too many people in my life that appeared to both need AND want me, but alas after the "need" part was fulfilled their friendship waned. Today I am thinking of how many times I have been let down AND let others down also. Feeling a little blue I suppose.

However, I also have been graciously and lovingly reminded that Jesus died because he LOVES me, and WANTS me. That's so much better and complete than the love or desire of ANY human being.

So yes...I was there when you needed me. I was the friend that you could talk to when the world was caving in around you. I listened to you cry and cried with you. I held you. I shared more of my life with you than most people will see or experience. I gave of my time and money. I gave, I loved, I wanted. I made an effort when you did not. Yet...we no longer talk. You no longer check to see if I am ok. You don't return emails or texts. You don't even grace my facebook comments with a return response. Months and years have gone by and we no longer even speak, see each other or talk over the phone. It hurts, it is sad, it is difficult to understand.

BUT, BUT, BUT, BUT, BUT........

God's Word promises ME that HE will NEVER leave ME nor forsake ME. I am clinging to this promise. I have a friend in Jesus. I have the only true friend I will EVER need. Even in the midst of my current "funk" I am loved, I am treasured, I am valued and I am GRATEFUL.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Elah's Here

So Sarah and Justin Massey added an addition to their family on December 28, 2010 at 9:07 pm. Months ago they asked me to be an additional support person for the labor/delivery. I can't even tell you the joy and happiness I felt when they asked.

Watching Sarah labor was an honor. Justin did a fabulous job supporting her. It was a precious time. I was able to help by updating the grandparents who were anxiously awaiting in the waiting room. I encouraged her with my words. I held her when she had her epidural and prayed over her. I held her leg as she pushed Elah into the world. I helped to control music selection and volume. I poured water and helped to get cold cloths. I called the nurse when she needed it. I drove them to the hospital. I just helped in small ways, but it was an HONOR. I will forever be grateful to have watched my goddaughter Elah Moriah Massey enter the world.

Congrats again guys...she's here!!! YEAH!

It's still so close to Christmas here is a song that gets me everytime I hear it. "Welcome to our World" Elah. Emmanuel came for YOU!!!