Thursday, January 14, 2010

Whining, Waffles and Wondering....

Whining...I have heard LOTS of that lately. My older three are really struggling to adjust to all of this newness. They are feeling disconnected from each other, from their routine and from mom and dad. I have had to deal with some pretty nasty behavioral stuff in the last few days. I am feeling completely out of my league. I am so tired of hearing and SAYING the words "No", "Stop that", "Don't". Catch my drift??? I have no energy to deal with this. I feel hopeless and I want to whine myself. Maybe that's what I'm doing in this blog...hahaha!

Waffles...taking as much Fenugreek as I have been makes your sweat and skin smell like maple syrup. I hope taking this herb helps. I wonder about my milk supply. to try and keep up with two kiddos is a daunting task. Jonathan is nursing fairly well. James has yet to have enough strength and stamina to nurse so he gets breast milk in a bottle. I could use a good Belgian waffle right now from IHOP covered in boysenberry syrup with hash browns and a STRONG cup of coffee!!! is this all going to pan out? Am I going to warp my children? What was I thinking? Why am I homeschooling? Why two sets of twins? Will my children EVER stop fighting? Will I ever sleep again? When is the next time I'm goint to take a shower? What about a date? I feel like I haven't had a real meaningful, soul touching conversation with Nathan in months. I wonder when I will be able to go to church again...WITH my family. I wonder why I feel so lost, disconnected and hopeless. I wonder what these boys will look like, what they will be, are they healthy? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder....

A heart full. A head full. A life full. Today I am barely swimming. I would say I'm dog paddling. Thanks for letting me share...

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Just Keep Swimming

I know, I know...I keep promising more pics and not delivering. Forgive me!!!

Yesterday was a busy day. Jonathan and James had their first pediatric appointment. We have switched all five kids to a NEW ped. We met Dr. Bryan for the first time yesterday. He seems very smart and extremely gentle. I am not sure about his stance on chiropractic and vaccinations yet...keep you posted. The boys are doing well. They each weighed 5 lbs. 9 and a half oz. They were each 18" long and the doc gave them an "A". Praise God. We'll just keep doing what we are doing and praying for the best.

Mom came over today and I took almost a two hour nap. It was glorious. Of course I haven't had a shower in three days and my shirt is on inside out and backwards, but besides that...

Post partum depression is somewhere lurking. It hasn't really shown it's evil face yet, but the darkness isn't far away...EVER! I was very overwhelmed last Friday. I called Nathan just to hear his voice and to have him pray for me. He lovingly and graciously took the time to do that. After asking specifically what it was I was feeling...I told him I just felt like I was drowning. Later that afternoon a simply GORGEOUS arrangement of flowers showed for ME from my husband with a card that said "Just Keep Swimming". Aren't I blessed? I have a loving Heavenly Father, an amazing husband and FIVE unique and precious children. It is taking me a while to process all of this.

Keep praying for us!!! We certainly haven't found our "groove" and are in desperate need of some sanity and SERENITY!!!

In Him,


Wednesday, January 6, 2010

And So It Begins...

Well I have no pics as of yet..Mimi did take some that I hope to post soon.
We picked up the boys yesterday and brought them home at about 6:30 pm. The kids were ECSTATIC to meet their new brothers. It was a frigid yet special arrival.

We had a LONG night. Jonathan especially struggled. This nursing thing is going to take a while to get the hang of for all involved. Oh and trying to pump in between and find clean clothes in the drawers that somebody else organized at 3 am isn't easy either. Don't get me wrong I am NOT complaining, just trying to wrap my head around it all!!!

So this morning after their 7:30-8am feeding I found the burp cloths and receiving blankets in the basement (we just moved last week). I reorganized the clothes and washed up the preemie items we just purchased yesterday. I am drinking coffee and although DECAF it makes me SMILE!!! Even though we were without power for over an hour this morning all seems to be going well. Nathan took today off, but unfortunately must return to work tomorrow. Although this makes me extremely sad I know it is the right thing.

I am happy today. I am glad to know Jesus, AND glad to be on CELEXA!!! :-)

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Belated New Year and Update on the Boys

Mommy holding James (Christmas Day)

James Flint close up (Christmas Day)

Jonathan Flint close up

DadDad holding Jonathan

Happy New Year to all from the Flint family!!! May God's richest blessings rain down upon you in 2010.

2009 was quite a year. Nathan was laid off from the Cove. He went without a job for several months and FINALLY God blessed him with a wonderful opportunity to work alongside Vince Anderson at Cove Auto Repair. So he went from the Cove to the We found out in May we were pregnant again, and in June discovered it was TWINS AGAIN!!! Pre-term labor arrived on Dec. 15th when my water broke. So seven weeks early James and Jonathan Flint made their debut on December 20th. Oh and in the midst of ALL of this we moved from Black Mountain to Swannanoa. We now live in my grandfather's house in Grovemont. We have lived here for three days!!! There is a lot yet to accomplish but at least we have a home to which we can bring the boys!!! Speaking of the boys....they might get to come home from the NICU this week!!!! YEAH!!! Having all five children under one roof will make life MUCH easier!

Thanks for praying for us. Thanks for loving us. Thanks for supporting us. We will try our best to keep you udated on our family. For now here are a few pics of the new additions...

Their favorite position!!!

The "sons of thunder"...Jonathan still on his billy blanket

Jonathan on Christmas Day!!! What a sweet outfit.

James yawning on Christmas

More snuggling