Thursday, November 24, 2011
With Deep Gratitude
I am so grateful. My life is full of blessings. They look much differently than I expect them to some times, but they are blessings. There are people and things that are no longer in my life and it took my a long time to see that as a blessing/gift, but I am coming to realize that even the short time I was blessed was enough. My relationship with Christ is MORE than enough. Unmet expectations have less and less hold on me and I am learning to release daily my need to be needed and my desire to control people and situations. I am thankful that I am learning that not everyone is going to like me or want to be my friend (hard to believe isn't it...hahaha?) and that I can't create peace in the midst of chaos. I can't judge others, I can't even judge myself and it is so good to be free from that compulsion. I am filled with gratitude and my heart is lighter than ever. I see challenges as exciting and my to do lists are becoming more balanced. Hope is renewed. Expectations of myself and others are changing and my dependence upon the Lord is increasing more everyday. My heart longs for it's real home. Daily I am reminded that this world is not my home. I yearn to live in God's intended purpose for my life and I am searching for the abundant life He has for me. I am GRATEFUL, blessed beyond measure and forever humbled by God's love, mercy and saving grace. Happy Thanksgiving and blessings to you all during this holiday season.